CLOSURE? - by Justanotherkelvin

All good things come to an end so they say.... I think i believed it but yet I fought it, I said nah, not all good things come to an end, because to me; our love was never gonna end. It's been alot of phases😅, from strangers to friends, to lovers to strangers again to friends again and then best friends and it goes on and on.We became lovers once again, shared notes, calls, ideas , had fights too but it was beautiful, everything about it was beautiful, maybe too beautiful......I never saw a flaw in you, and that made me question myself every now and then "does she really love me?" Not from a place of doubt, but from a place of awe, you chose me? Like me?? It was just too good to be true. Something never made sense to me, how u stayed even when you knew you could've been with anyone else, I mean they were all after you anyway, so it really didn't make sense to me, she really does love me.. and just like every other relationship people make mistakes, no one is perfect but this wasn't clear to me, I saw you as perfect and saw how imperfect I was. I Adored you to the point I could only see how beneath I was. So what'd I do? Well I made another mistake, and this time I drowned in the depths of my self pity and said "you know what, you deserve better, I'm unworthy and I left" in my head, I say "she deserves someone better, someone else will treat her better" and it goes on and on. In that one day, I hurt you more than all the mistakes I ever made, and to me, I was ridding you of a burden you've carried for too long. And here is me saying, I'm sorry.. I understand it nowIt is true, we see in parts and know in parts, took me a while but I eventually caught up. We remained friends afterwards, figured it was best to leave it at that and I tried to make myself believe that, and at a point I did. Well at least I thought so. Thought it was over, I see you as a friend and nothing more, everything was chill.. until I saw you again with a friend sitting next to me and you walking up, my heart raced, I felt like a husband caught cheating, I felt the need to explain, I felt everything.. everything but this is funny, why am I feeling this way? we're just friends right? Why, why why? And then it hit meI was never over you, I was never over us, I just had it suppressed for too long till the point where I felt it wasn't there anymore. I realise I still kept ever letter, every gift and every picture we ever had together. So in the end I never really moved on. I brought out my necklaces today, I haven't worn them in a while cuz each one is either a gift from you or a pair we both shared. I stared at them for a while, a long while, I smiled and came to a conclusion. I may never really get closure, my feelings may never fade away, and I may always have that same spot in my heart for you at every given time but... all good things come to an end and I have come to accept that our chapter has indeed come to an end. I threw some of the paired necklaces away, maybe it's my way of accepting an end I never wanted to accept. But it is a step in letting you go. I miss you, and I may always do, we will never be a thing again and that is true. But it doesn't change the fact that ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END🥀

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