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Student @ Olabisi Onabanjo University
IS THERE STILL TRUE LOVE!?
<p>I gave you versions of me</p><p>that I was still trying to understand</p><p>unpolished, unguarded,</p><p>still learning how to be loved</p><p>without apologizing for it.</p><p><br/></p><p>You saw me…</p><p>or at least I thought you did.</p><p>Because the way you looked at me</p><p>felt like home</p><p>and I was tired of being a visitor</p><p>in every heart I walked into.</p><p><br/></p><p>So I stayed.</p><p><br/></p><p>I stayed through the inconsistencies,</p><p>through the late replies that carried silence,</p><p>through the “I’m just busy”</p><p>that slowly started to feel like</p><p>“I’m just not choosing you.”</p><p><br/></p><p>But love… love makes you patient in dangerous ways.</p><p>It teaches you how to water dead plants</p><p>and call it hope.</p><p><br/></p><p>I memorized your patterns,</p><p>made excuses for your absence,</p><p>turned your bare minimum</p><p>into something worth holding onto.</p><p><br/></p><p>And the scary part?</p><p>I convinced myself it was enough.</p><p><br/></p><p>You became a habit</p><p>not the good kind,</p><p>but the kind that slowly ruins you</p><p>while feeling impossible to quit.</p><p><br/></p><p>I lost sleep trying to understand you,</p><p>lost pieces of myself trying to keep you,</p><p>lost my voice</p><p>because I didn’t want to sound like a problem.</p><p><br/></p><p>Tell me</p><p>how do you miss someone</p><p>who made you feel alone</p><p>even when they were right there?</p><p><br/></p><p>How do you grieve a person</p><p>who didn’t actually leave,</p><p>but just stopped loving you out loud?</p><p><br/></p><p>That kind of heartbreak…</p><p>it’s quiet,</p><p>it doesn’t shatter all at once</p><p>it fades you.</p><p><br/></p><p>And one day you wake up</p><p>and realize</p><p>you’ve been mourning</p><p>while still in the relationship.</p><p><br/></p><p>I should’ve left</p><p>the moment I started begging</p><p>for the kind of love</p><p>that once came naturally.</p><p><br/></p><p>But I stayed…</p><p>hoping you’d remember me</p><p>the way I remembered you.</p><p><br/></p><p>Now I’m here</p><p>picking up pieces</p><p>you don’t even know you broke,</p><p>learning how to pour back into myself</p><p>without feeling guilty for it.</p><p><br/></p><p>Healing isn’t beautiful.</p><p>It’s messy,</p><p>it’s lonely,</p><p>it’s crying over memories</p><p>you wish you never made.</p><p><br/></p><p>But I’m trying.</p><p><br/></p><p>Trying to unlearn</p><p>the version of love you taught me</p><p>the one where I had to earn affection,</p><p>where I had to shrink</p><p>just to be held.</p><p><br/></p><p>And maybe one day</p><p>I’ll love again…</p><p>not like this,</p><p>never like this.</p><p><br/></p><p>Because next time,</p><p>I won’t beg to be chosen</p><p>I’ll walk away</p><p>the moment I feel</p><p>I’m being slowly forgotten.</p>
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