My Body: God's Temple - by Letters From Delight ⁠♡♡

My pastor doesn't know the difference between my last thought and my current, but what about me?. Growing up in a Christian home is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Morally, spiritually, and maybe even academically for me. I say academically because if Daddy told us about the story of Daniel In the Bible and his Spirit of excellence, he would warn that Delight and siblings should be known for same. And that means constantly bringing a good result home. It was not possible to skip morning devotions, because daddy would do a headcount to make sure everyone was present and of course, awake. This was how I got my spiritual foundation. All of the Bible stories I know, and the way prayers leave my lips to God, like I attended prayer classes from the womb. From my cradle days I could already recite the 20 verses of recitation given by the church, off hand. They told us everything, I mean my parents. And what is a strict Christian home without the conscious warning of "don't get pregnant out of wedlock, standing with a boy is a sin, having a boyfriend will take you to hell fire and no sex before marriage". Which in real sense is almost true. All of these warnings but nobody told me what to do with the feelings I'd have for a boy. Nobody told me my lips would yearn to be kissed my another. The warning didn't alert me that as a girl I'd constantly experience what's called ovulation and that means at every period in a month my body would demand to be touched my a man. To be held and seen by some male gender. You find yourself wanting to be loved so badly on some days. Fortunately for me, I am a good sucker for romance. Wake me up any day, anytime. I didn't know my body would orgasm either. Nobody did. And whenever it did, I would feel dirty and filthy before God. <img alt="" src="/media/inline_insight_image/Screenshot_20260606-183328.jpg"/>I remember the first time it did I felt so dirty to the core. The whole day had me worried. Goshhh I'm sincerely sorry to my younger self for beating myself up. 🤍In fact I heard the word "orgasm" for the first time 3 months ago on Substack. I had to go to chat gpt to understand better. God bless feifei on substack, I read my first orgasm piece from her, and I read that piece more than 6 times. I felt everything. And Mubarak on substack too. He broke down orgasm so well, even though I felt somehow while reading...lol I did anyways. Ohhhhhh!!!!! "How can a body that's God's temple orgasm?. Jesus I'm cooked!". These were the thoughts that filled my mind. And so every time I developed feelings for Emmanuel, I'd run back to God begging for forgiveness—because I learnt loving a boy means being a sinner . I would run the same way to God with a heavy heart, for Daniel, James, Irede, Kemi, Jerry and all the boys I developed feelings for. Hoping that Jesus knows that "I'm just a girl". <img alt="" src="/media/inline_insight_image/Screenshot_20260606-183245.jpg"/> Watching romance movies felt like the things a child of God shouldn't do. Romance felt like sin, not to talk of intimate romance. By the way our mummy's and daddy's didn't show affection publicly. So it summed up as to why seeing romance being publicly displayed felt like a sin or a thing for unbelievers. Sex education questions in church forums were treated dismissively . Because why did Jane scribble a question in a white paper during the question and answer section asking "how to wear a condom", and Kemi "when does it feel right to have sex?". But their question papers were squeezed into a corner, and left without answers. If you wanted me to abstain from Sex before marriage shouldn't I know what the sex in itself you are telling me to avoid is?. This is exactly how out of curiosity Kemi sought for answers herself, and 9 months later we had a naming ceremony to attend. I'm not that curious though, but curiosity has made me do some crazy stuff also. Many of us grew up without real sex sensitization. Sister Ope in the church who didn't have proper sensitization on sex before marriage. When she eventually got married, her husband's Penis too big— penetration was impossible. And now the marriage would not dissolve, because divorce is a sin, and it has never been known that a penis size can reduce, except a miracle. So she continues to manage painful sex in her marriage till whenever.And whether you like it or not, there are many Ope's and soon to be Ope's. That's not why I'm here today though. Ope will be fine. May the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with her and 99 others. Amen. I don't think there's anyone completely untouched by sexual desire. Only that some feel it more intensely than the other. The thing is I found God for myself along the line. Above what my parents laid down for me. Above what society thinks. I've learnt and enlightened myself above the stereotypes. And God began to reshape my understanding about these things. That these desires, in themselves are not totally evil. He created the hormones in you. He made them function. It is what we do with them and how we handle them that matters. Sex is not dirty, it's not sinful. It's one of the most beautiful things God created to be practiced between married couples. But practicing it inappropriate {before marriage} is where the line is drawn. Having emotions and feelings is proof that you are human with a heart pumping blood. James 1:14-15But each person is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desire. Then desire when it has conceived gives birth to sin..."Notice that James does not say desire itself is sin. The progression is: desire → temptation → giving in → sin. Sometimes I take these emotions and desires to God. I beg God to help me un-love them since I am not ready to commit. And the desires?, sometimes I just sit with them till they go. Just make sure you don't stay in them for too long. For "shall we continue in sin that grace may abound?". That aside Read sex educational books, listen to podcasts that talks about sex and your body. Don't let anyone lie to you, and most importantly don't lie to yourself.

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