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2 a.m.
<p>Maybe it's all the nights I spent not sleeping</p><p>Or all the days I sat thinking</p><p>Of how I've crumbled to this point</p><p>When all I'm brave enough to do</p><p>Is wonder </p><p>"When did I really lose myself?"</p><p><br/></p><p>It's probably the fruit of one of those struggles</p><p>For acceptance in a toxic home</p><p>Seeking daily to give more reasons</p><p>To prove yourself one of their own</p><p>Yet I wonder </p><p>"When did I really lose myself?"</p><p><br/></p><p>I guess it's the years I spent searching </p><p>For comfort in man's mere word of mouth</p><p>Their words, a reflection of who I'm meant to be</p><p>Doing all it takes to make them love me</p><p>Myself darling, </p><p>"When did you really lose yourself?"</p><p><br/></p><p>I understand I've wasted a few long years</p><p>In an unparalleled delusion of false happiness</p><p>In a mockery of what love and relationships should be</p><p>I've loved and I'm yet unloved</p><p>Hated not for evil done, and all good taken for granted</p><p><br/></p><p>Still, </p><p>I struggle to find comfort in this wicked world</p><p>I bet I'm still lost in thoughts of this</p><p>Wondering when this heart would hear my pleas</p><p>Scattered thoughts... yet they diverge still,</p><p>To my voiceless thinking, </p><p>"When did I lose myself?"</p><p><br/></p><p>I'm stuck in this trance still</p><p>Trying to find the missing pieces of the puzzle</p><p>Trying so hard to make it all make sense</p><p>And now, </p><p>Though late, </p><p>I realize,</p><p>It will only take me to find myself.</p>
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