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2019......
<p><span class="html-content"><p>When you passed, something died in me. Something else kept me awake and asleep. I dreamed every day of having nightmares. I tried to hold back the tears but, I was drowning on the inside. To date, the front seat feels like a trap. Bro, why did you leave us? We never ended our conversation. I learned that you asked of me when you woke up. I was so sure you would wake up and stay up. Prayed, praised, and waited. I still remember coming that night and smiling. You had so many calls that day. I didn't know you were going to answer God.</p> <p>Shiiiii</p> <p>I wish you didn't, though. Remember when Utuk called and shared the news? I froze in the shower. Drenched in my own tears Asking why the f**k did I step out unscratched? Many thought of it as a testimony. But why would I celebrate a second chance when your mom was mourning her second child, Her only son.</p> <p>I took a few pills&nbsp;</p><p>But didn't heal&nbsp;</p><p>Rolled a few Blau&nbsp;</p><p>But the pain was still loud</p><p>Stripped a few blouses&nbsp;</p><p>But these houses&nbsp;</p><p>These blocks, these locks stand strong Screamed, creamed, ran, drank, sang, sank, searched, read, shared, bred, cared, led, bled, fled, but still broken.</p> <p>Four years later and you ain't back. When does it end? How does it end? I wish I hadn't told you to follow me. Maybe we'd still talk. And, these memories wouldn't stalk me. Bro, I still hear the tires screeching. I remember you sitting still. Shii still hurts. I guess that's what life is. A LOT OF... NOT ENOUGH OF... BECAUSE OF...</p> <p>They put the blame on you. Put up a post on that. They didn't take my words and said I was in trauma. How can I unlive that day? I've moved past it. The systems have always been thrashy.</p> <p>Just so you know I got taller! I still play with words. I work out often. Since you're in the clouds here's a quick question... Is it crowded up there? Since you're looking down I thought to keep you UPdated!</p> <p>I had to end this on a happy note. Bro, I know you're gone but I still see you.</p> <p>And yeah, I'm better now.</p><p><br></p><p>It's six years already bro...&nbsp;</p><p>Keep soaring 🦅</p> </span></p>
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