<p><span class="html-content"><p>When you passed, something died in me.
Something else kept me awake and asleep. I dreamed every day of having nightmares.
I tried to hold back the tears but, I was drowning on the inside.
To date, the front seat feels like a trap.
Bro, why did you leave us?
We never ended our conversation.
I learned that you asked of me when you woke up.
I was so sure you would wake up and stay up.
Prayed, praised, and waited.
I still remember coming that night and smiling.
You had so many calls that day.
I didn't know you were going to answer God.</p>
<p>Shiiiii</p>
<p>I wish you didn't, though.
Remember when Utuk called and shared the news?
I froze in the shower.
Drenched in my own tears
Asking why the f**k did I step out unscratched?
Many thought of it as a testimony.
But why would I celebrate a second chance when your mom was mourning her second child, Her only son.</p>
<p>I took a few pills </p><p>But didn't heal </p><p>Rolled a few Blau </p><p>But the pain was still loud</p><p>Stripped a few blouses </p><p>But these houses </p><p>These blocks, these locks stand strong
Screamed, creamed, ran, drank, sang, sank, searched, read, shared, bred, cared, led, bled, fled, but still broken.</p>
<p>Four years later and you ain't back. When does it end?
How does it end?
I wish I hadn't told you to follow me.
Maybe we'd still talk.
And, these memories wouldn't stalk
me. Bro, I still hear the tires screeching.
I remember you sitting still. Shii still hurts. I guess that's what life is.
A LOT OF...
NOT ENOUGH OF...
BECAUSE OF...</p>
<p>They put the blame on you.
Put up a post on that.
They didn't take my words and said I was in trauma.
How can I unlive that day?
I've moved past it.
The systems have always been thrashy.</p>
<p>Just so you know
I got taller!
I still play with words.
I work out often.
Since you're in the clouds here's a quick question...
Is it crowded up there?
Since you're looking down I thought to keep you UPdated!</p>
<p>I had to end this on a happy note.
Bro, I know you're gone but I still see you.</p>
<p>And yeah, I'm better now.</p><p><br></p><p>It's six years already bro... </p><p>Keep soaring 🦅</p>
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2019......
By
Samuel Ibok
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