She is an awkward kid. A rule abiding, people pleasing, goofy creature with a slightly whimsical personality. She has very few friends, and she never quite fits in, no matter how hard she tries. She believes that she's going to become someone of great importance to the world someday, but for now, she does not feel particularly important. Her room is her safe space, and the world, being all unpredictable, feels like a danger zone.

Socially, she's a different story. struggles to initiate conversations because she overthinks her words and often end up giving one word replies or saying something she immediately regrets. She can't maintain eye contact, barely knows what to do with her hands and she laughs at random moments. She sometimes avoids people she knows, not because she dislikes them, but because approaching them feels like preparing for an examination, as she takes steps towards them, she rehearses what to say in her head.

She creates imaginary conversations and connects unrelated things. She also has an unconventional sense of humour and laughs at jokes she made an hour ago.

She is overly self conscious, sensitive to criticism and constantly worried about what people think. A small interaction can occupy her mind for hours. She waved at someone and he didn't wave back, suddenly, she is investigating a million possible explanations, meanwhile, he probably didn't even see her.

Favour there's a party at......nah, she would rather spend her time in her safe space blasting K-pop through her headset and dancing the choreography perfectly, because dancing in public is a talent she apparently wasn't blessed with. She has weird teeth but great hair, and she still hasn't mastered the art of posing for pictures.

Her interests are equally unusual.... Her hb would always ask "na ice cream you no fit buy?" But no! She genuinely enjoys eating frozen raw pap, ehn...yes 😂. Mukbangers are some of her favourite people in the world because she loves watching people eat, she finds chewing ice thrilling, enjoys watching people scratch their hair and absolutely adores the smell of petrichor.

She dreams of being popular, yet she'd rather have five people celebrate her birthday with her because she gets uncomfortable with the attention it brings. She is the smartest in class and of course she know the answers to nine out of ten questions her teacher asks, but God forbid she stand up to answer one.

Sometimes, it feels like everyone has their lives figured out while she's still trying to figure out her's. Nevertheless, there's this little voice that tells her she's going to become something important someday.

So, don't mistake her quietness for arrogance, her solitude for antisocial behaviour or her awkwardness for unfriendliness. She genuinely seeks companionship, she just doesn't always know how to initiate it. And please, don't mistake her peculiarities for something to be ashamed of.

She is weird, yes, but the good kind of weird. She's an awkward, dorky, slightly whimsical kid, and honestly, that's one of the nicest things about her. 🙂