Do we never get tired? Cos I am.....I'm tired of having to smile even when i don't want to.

Im tired of having to hide behind my mask because I don't want to be vulnerable and taken advantage of.

I pity the people that envy me being so happy,sometimes I just wish I can take my mask up and show them my works is not all rain bows and unicorns.

I'm just a girl,a teenager but why do I feel like I carry the weight of the world in my shoulders? I have been told that I don't strive for excellence but I attain it. Who said I don't? Sometimes I pretend to be nonchalant and care less but all of that ,deep withing me,I know it's the mask speaking.

I want to take the mask off but it protects me. It keeps me safe in my little world.My mask has become a part of me but ...it isn't me.

Sometimes,I want to scream and cry but the mask won't let me."Hush,my darling," it says to me,"I am your only friend and I will protect you."

Why then do I long to no longer hide? To be free of my only friend. I just want to be genuinely happy,is it too much to ask for?