TRAUMA - by Emmanuel Ayobami

*TRAUMA*

life is just another roller coaster when you come to think about it, women, men, children, teenagers and the youth these are the various categories I have seen so far so good . so many women out there need to be spoken for they need to be out there so I heard about this lady “JANE DOE” from my part I saw a story of a lady been reaped of mental peace and mental stability she deserves justice and so do other women and men and also children or teenagers and youths who are being abused or harassed out there. we need to stop this gender inequality scene . 90% of women out there ain’t safe so many women are scared to love or give in because of there past life and here comes my own story.

my name is oluwatobi a normal Nigerian teenager who was raised by her parents so well she lacked nothing.

I’m a 400lvl student and I will like to share my story with the world my past trauma and my healing process I’m still healing but I know that with my family by my side and the people I know loves me I’m gonna get through this better and okay.

I was 17 when I was drugged and raped by my friends friend I was lured coz of my kindness my love and care was taken advantage of , I was stripped of my dignity I was so lost in everything then this truama kept on heating like a bomb and I was scared, i was locked in my world of fear and not willing to step into the world and keep fighting and knowing not every man was built that way . I had two attempts of suicidal acts just because I was traumatized and didn’t know what I was doing and at the same time was trying to get away from everyone trying to make my self invisible to the world. Then I was given hope to continue leaving continue fight I told my self that life ain’t over I just gotta keep fighting keep praying and keep trusting that I will be fine ,I started my healing journey and I can tell you it wasn’t easy there where nights where I was very very sad and there where nights I just didn’t feel among and then I started thinking about ways to get my mind off anything that could bring me such pains. I started dreaming about being big somewhere I started with school I went into pagentries and parties with friends dinner night with friends too and it was fun but that wasn’t enough it felt like something was missing I think it was my sanity and I started doing bad in school at some point I was scared I have always been that child who wants to make my parents proud and I still keep fighting for that to happen and I know I will do better some day and this was how I started healing.I know trauma ain’t something you heal from just by trying to forget but you have to make your self feel happy and wanted so you can be safe.

what I’m trying to say ladies and gentlemen when you have trauma stuck in your head and you don’t know what to do about it. start thinking about what you love doing or what you will love doing that’s one way of getting out of it or using the hope of someone you love so dearly is also wonder ful love helps in so many ways and beautiful ways.

To all women,men, children,teenagers and lovely youths going through traumas out there I’m rooting for you to stay strong and be positive.

*signing out oluwatobi thank you and is my story*