LATELY….

    The past two days hasn’t been my pen days. My creativity, has somehow grown weaker. My eyes discharged tears frequently. Not because of my eye defect but for something else I couldn’t explain.

   I have been feeling a bit worthless lately. You know. The kind that makes you foresee wins and achievement but in reality, you are just a mud gradually becoming a quick sand because everything that comes in contact with you drowns with you and becomes no more.

    Uh… Where to begin?

  I was told to be more appreciative towards others? Was I becoming a bit boastful haughty?

    I was told to worry less.

   Was I wrinkling in anxiety?

Come to think of it, am I really fine? Like fine fine?

       I ask a lot about if others feel the same but now, I’m not seeking validation. I seek understanding. Bu deep down, I need validation to know if my point is valid. Is that valid?

    Chest ache. Chills. Redundant thoughts . Worry. Weakness. Straight face. Especially the last one.

   Call me emotional. I’m like this and mostly like this.

   Can’t I have a clear soul and have I worked towards it??

    One way to find out.

     Get to know me. I am a tossed coin.

      Well, another day to wallow in silence and deep introspection.

  Bon nuit