Even if I had opened the umbrella, 

I was meant to get drenched.

The way 

Even if you had stayed 

You were still going to leave.

I remember 

I kept looking at the sky that day 

As if someone up there 

Might try to stop us.

But no one did.

There was another rain

I was trying to hide,

The one inside me 

That kept rising to my eyes,

Without asking....

I could have turned around 

Looked at you one last time...

But I didn't.....

I was afraid, 

What if you were still there, 

And I couldn't walk away.

Anyway

In that kind of rain 

You didn't really see anything.

Not faces...

Not intentions...

Not the moments....

That once felt real.

You just feel the wetness 

And the cold 

Slowly getting inside you 

Truth is 

It wasn't really raining, 

It was you leaving,

And me 

Learning how to drown.