It's been a while

Since I've cried 

Sometimes I wonder

If that is alright 

For is it worth the fight

Sometimes I wonder

As I stew in spite 

Despite

Sometimes I wonder

Why do i bother

For this feeling I hunger

Sometimes I wonder

For I know despair, hate and sorrow

As these tears feels like a far memory 

Held in deep treasury 

Sometime I wonder

For I am close to death 

Seeing as beauty lose it's breath

Sometimes I wonder

As I'm blessed with this sensitivity

Cursed in knowledge distanced from such purity

Sometimes I wonder 

This is a task I must discover

As my life stretches longer

Sometime I wander in the recesses of my mind 

Without judgement to continue in this land 

To not get sucked in it's quick sand