That month,

my tears escaped me...ran down my face like they had somewhere urgent to be.

The month I learned to mind my business.

Because peace?

Peace is expensive,

and drama don’t pay rent.

The month I lost friends...

'Cause I stopped making decisions off emotion.

I paused.

I breathed.

I said no,

and some people took that personal.

The month I understood what it means

to have goals,

and what it means to set patterns that align with them.

The month I figured out

what true friendship actually stands for—and who was just standing there,

not standing with me.

The month I almost lost my mind...

but outside?

I wore the brightest smile.

Like insanity could be styled into fashion.

The month I flirted with extroversion...

then crawled back

to my little introvert cave...whispering, “Try again later.”

The month I tried to understand people from their perspective.

But in the end?

I found silence

speaks louder

than misread intentions.

The month the "you're turning 20 soon" pressure

pressed down on my chest

like adulthood was a deadline

and I was late.

The month I lost touch with Abba... 😢

but Abba...

Abba found me again. 🙇🏽‍♀️

Did I get clarity?

No.

But will I?

Definitely.

Did I smile?

Yes.

Blessing isn’t optional

when souls are tied to your smile.

Did I add up?

Not yet.

Maybe my body just likes this slim version. 😂

Still me... slim, tall, chocolate-skinned,

with a sharper mindset than last month.

October?

We’re giving:

alignment.

Word.

Prayer.

The secret place–a do or die thing,

because that’s where my future self waits.

I’m learning to forgive fast,

drop burdens before they grow.

I’m not sharing for validation...but so someone knows:

All you need is God,

a small circle,

a forgiving heart,

and the courage to leave the past behind.

Focus on now—because that’s where tomorrow starts.

If this landed on you,

maybe it was meant to.

#keeyra writes✍🏽