Please call me back

Someone help me, I can feel my head throbbing. I have a passion, I swear I do but I still can’t let go of my fondness for these novel, tempting and trending pursuits. Okay, so I'm a UI/UX designer, this is what I am most passionate about, at least that’s what I've always thought. Up until last month did I find myself starting to like Motion designing, now this week it is the father of them all - Animation. Of course, why won’t I love animations. I have been watching SpongeBob right from my mother's womb, up until now. Maybe this was my greatest passion instead. It felt so close to home. <o:p></o:p> But how come I’m brewing a fondness for it now and never before. What is wrong with me? The UI/UX I do is great but according to hirers and industry professionals, I am still not past a junior level. So it means I still have a long way to go but here I am wanting to cheat on it for newer desires. <o:p></o:p> To be honest, if I am being thorough with myself, something deep inside me tells me it is the state of the economy. Who can thrive on a singular source of income and buy my dream car – Lamborghini Revuelto. Except of course you are in the oil and gas sector, you are a tech bro, a ritualist or a bandit. So maybe these my new passions is highly economic driven, born out of necessity than an actual love I desperately try to convince myself. <o:p></o:p> But whatever be the case, it’s burning my head up. I can’t afford to spend too much time learning prototyping before I delve into learning the principles of Animation. The mind training is unreal. <o:p></o:p> When I put too much attention in curating my resume and portfolio as a UI/UX designer, that is when jobs in animation spring up. Now, just yesterday I have been salivating at the idea of swimming into AI and Automation. You can’t blame me, everyone I know has jumped on it, they say AI is now the future and it’s paying massively. This year is the year I come out of the trenches so something must give, no matter what. <o:p></o:p> Sometimes I know my brain just scoffs, it wants to yell at me but fortunately for me it can’t. I mean, didn’t they say humans are not even usurping a quarter of our brain capacity. So what then is mine yelping about. <o:p></o:p> But when I sit with myself, I ask. Am I hurting myself thinking I am just trying to be proactive? What if I am just forcing things when my heart isn’t really committed to newer passions? I don’t think these new series of pursuit is God’s design for me. And how am I certain to attain success when I am disconnected from what I truly want to do because of pressure and fear. It’s really tough to be honest, especially when you are yet to hit the ground running. How can I even be so sure I must make it from my passion? Well, I must take my chances I guess. Wish me luck.<o:p></o:p>  I am a creative designer, I love designing software interfaces and user experiences. So not until I expend my creativity, resources and time on that passion, I wouldn’t get myself distracted. And if pathetically I do, please call me back. <o:p></o:p>

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