‎I thought I will never fall in love, maybe that was just one of my innocent ways of deceiving myself. I've known this Brother or should I say guy - I presume I will stick to 'Brother' - before now. The funny part is that I saw him the previous year when he came for holiday and nothing in me moved towards him. 

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‎He used to visit his daddy once in a blue moon but what I felt for him this time was something I had never experienced before. I must say this, we actually happened to be church members, his daddy is our pastor. From the very day I met him this year when he attended a service, I almost lose my composure but I did not show it and I believed it was not obvious. It was hard for me to admit but I think I had fallen in love with him though I preferred to call it a 'like'.

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‎Subsequently, we met in church and most times he would sit beside me but I will never allow this affection distract me. Considering the fact that he is an undergraduate while I was still a secondary  school student, I honestly did not see anything working between us. Being a very observant person, should I say I knew or I suspected that my crush is also crushing on me. As much as he could he avoided eye contact ; one of the very evidence that something is going on within him towards me. Several times, he made attempt to start some shy-looking conversation with me, NEVER!!, my man can't be a coward, I didn't give in. ' Bro go find your words' I say this in my heart any time he wants to start, and avoid this type of conversation.

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‎Not until one day

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‎'Did you have phone' he asked.

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‎'Yes but it's with my brother ' I responded and he just said okay and left, only God knows what was his plan. This simple conversation aroused my curiosity the more. A day after, I also brought up something like a joke when he came to fetch water at our place. A brave one for me but I don't really want to start, he should, like Egbon should speak out.

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‎Ritual it has become, he kept looking at me that day as he use to do whenever we're sitting together in church. Brother dey struggle, I was thinking within me. I'm just a very difficult person to crush on or to crush on someone because I will not show anything in both situation. I just live my life how I use to live it, no steeze no composure, if I have to shout I shout, if I have to eat, I eat. Immediately after the service he came to meet me and told me he would like to discuss something with me the following day. I could hardly wait for the following day to arrive, like I was just curious, he should have said whatever he wants to say instead of all this punishment nah.

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‎The following day as I was coming back from where I was learning tailoring around 7:00pm, it was raining so I just stop by at their place to say Hi, not to him actually. Despite the rain I decided to be going home when I discovered a figure coming after me...