There are so many things I wanted to say,

but somehow, the words never came.

Things I wanted people to understand,

things I wished someone would ask me about,

and things I didn't even know how to explain.

Sometimes, I had so much to say,

but when the moment came,

I just smiled and said,

"It's nothing."

But it was something.

It was always something.

There were apologies I waited for,

words I wanted to hear,

and conversations I had in my head

that never happened in real life.

Sometimes, I wonder

if things would have been different

if I had just spoken.

Would they have understood?

Would they have stayed?

Would anything have changed?

I guess I'll never know.

And maybe that's the hardest part,

not knowing what could have happened

if I had been brave enough

to say what was on my mind.

But I'm learning that

not every thought needs to be spoken,

and not every silence means

I had nothing to say.

Sometimes, I was scared.

Sometimes, I didn't have the words.

And sometimes,

I simply didn't know how to begin.

So, there are things I never said,

and perhaps there always will be.

But if I ever get another chance,

I hope I find the courage

to let some of those words out.

Because I wonder how many things

we leave unsaid

that we spend years wishing

we had said.