Hi Emmanuel, 

I am writing this with the last piece left in my broken heart. 

I'm sure by the time you get this, I'd be in Abuja. 

I saw the missed calls on your phone, 

And honestly it's fine.

I know I'm now your past.

And 

I was thinking 

Maybe 

We could.

Maybe 

Lagos took 

the best part of us.

Maybe 

But I just want to leave with the last memories and drop this with you.

So where do I begin?

Lagos or the walk in the garden,

But let me just try

Do you remember this?

I still remember this day

Clearly 

and

It's just so vivid.

You ordered red velvet cake and they were bringing Vanilla instead when I sighted it from after and it's just funny how I whispered 

"They're bringing Vanilla, I think they got your order wrong" 

And 

You were like 

"It's fine,as long as I am having it with you " 

and

 I smiled 

And 

for a moment, 

I felt 

happy.

And 

I was as surprised,

Maybe that was 

Why you gave me 

Lagos

Surprise,

Full Package 

Maybe,

Just 

maybe 

We could be something again 

Maybe,

That was 

that was 

why 

you called me to Lagos 

For this 

But I was wrong 

I was

I was

God damn it 

You 

You 

Let's not even start with our second year dating anniversary 

You gave me this. 

That night, you arrived at my work place to pick me up and surprise me,

And I was surprised.

Then 

You came to Abuja for me,

Just for me!

I thought so 

The rain and traffic jam, your trip to Abuja on our second year of dating, you called it our "DatingVersary".

E&T 2 years and counting,

Where you counting a forever ?

Or

Was it just the moment ?

And we went to have suya, you said I should stay in the car because of the rain. 

YOU 

Sent me this 

And 

How many memories,.

Emmanuel take your memories,

I don't want again 

Yes

I said 

I felt lonely 

And 

I wanted to come back 

But 

I can't deal with this.

I'm leaving,

I'm not coming back,

Don't find me in Abuja.

Don't call me 

Don't text me 

I'm changing my number 

Now 

I'm going to deal with life without colours,

But I'll be fine.

It's better than drowning in memories 

Maybe 

It's obsession,

But 

Losing you made me realize

LOSS 

Literally 

Now 

My mind keeps reminding me of you,

This is not healthy.

I need to go.

Please leave me alone because I can't stop wondering what I am without you,

How do I live without you???

Love Struck

Broken hearted

Unsolved.

Damn

Therapy is next

I can't breathe,

I cry as I say goodbye .

I loved you